i am just not gracious enough to give and not to take. i take too much and maybe that explains my soreness in every conversation cos i cannot see the better side of him. i feel like a sore thumb poking out of him, like i'm just not part of him. maybe, this is just all my side of thinking, cos i am complicated.
i think that everything always seems fine to him.
i think that i think too much, too much that my thoughts just corrupt my mind cos i like to think aloud and not filter my thoughts so that it will sound better and not cause hurt to others.
i really need to think more.
i feel suffocated in my small little world, but am afraid of venturing out cos of fear or seeing the ugly side of people.
i don't wanna know what i don't want to.
i want to see the good side of man only. i think i am escaping, escaping from things that i do not want to know but kept knocking on my door to want me to know them.
i am an escapist (if there is such a word).
i just don't want to get hurt and be sad cos i have seen many from my family and friends and it scares me.
getting hurt scares the hell out of me.
i just want to be simple and safe and happy.
i just want to be me.
♥ adeL darling
